This time…I will choose. Who are they to choose
every time? And for everyone. I will have to do it. Once a lesson should be
taught to them from someone whom they least expect. This time they will have to
beg in front of GOD. But, I will play safe. I won’t let them have a hint of
what I am planning.
My elder sisters played the whole day
and did nothing. They broke the broom while playing, splashed water at each
other while cleaning the bathroom, made noise while cleaning the utensils and
spilled water all over the floor while sweeping it. My sisters were beaten up
for doing nothing. Bloody idiots, how much work they expect from my sisters. I
will take revenge. Idiots think that no one is watching them, but they had no
idea, I was. They will cry like never before. I will make them cry. And
this is a promise.
My mother is also keeping unwell.
She looks so weak. Has swollen feet and high BP. She eats less and pukes more.
Keeps praying and crying .There is nobody to take care of her, instead she
alone has to take care of my 3 elder sisters.
One day she was cooking in haste as
she had an appointment with the doctor. My father had returned from his work
and was pretty angry for some cause. He, for no reason started beating my mother.
Two, Four, six……numerous slaps, he did not stop until my mother fainted. It
hurt me badly.
After all, I was in her womb. And I
am seven month old.
But the doctor said all is well. My mother was
perfectly fine. She has to continue with her old medicines and of course the
daily household work. And she did it perfectly without complains. No one
bothered for my mother, in pain. This was the time I had to take a decision, to
be or not to be a part of this family. I decided, no, I cannot afford to be in
such a bad state.
So, by giving excruciating pain to my mother,
I said goodbye to everyone and her 7 month old womb was no more.
My decision to do this was
definitely painful for mother. But before doing this; I had a conversation with
her.
‘Why do you bear this mamma and why does
father behave like that with you?’I asked her
‘What can I do my baby? This is a
male dominated society and your father always wanted a son, which I could not
give. So, I am treated like this.’ she said
‘Ok mamma, I get it. So you mean if
you give birth to a boy this time, he will treat you properly? Are you sure of
it?’
‘May be, but I am not sure of it.
Being treated so badly is my destiny now.’ She was crying ‘And this time also,
I know, you are a little angel not a boy.’
‘So mamma; you are saying if I come,
you will again be beaten up, and I also will have to work day and night like my
sisters?’
‘My little angel, I promise, I will
lay my life for you when you come in this world. But I cannot say about others.
Every day you see your sisters working so hard. Will you be able to do this?
Are you ready for all this, both before and after marriage? I leave up to you.
I will be with you in your decision.’ She said
After thinking for a few hours I
told her, ‘mamma, I don’t want such a life. What should I do?’
‘Just close your eyes and go in a
deep sleep, rest I will handle.’ Mother replied
‘But mamma, this will give you
immense pain, will you be able to bear it?’I asked.
‘Yes my angel, I will. Because the
pain that I will have to face, watching you working and beaten up, will be more
than this one.’ she took a deep breath.
And so, with our mutual consent, I
closed my eyes and we both were happy.
My father came, pulled her up, saw
her condition and then pushed her back against the wall. He was crying like a looser,
a beggar as he had purchased everything in blue but my mother kept smiling even
after being in so much pain.
My father pushed her along the wall
and started begging again in front of GOD.
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